Mommy, I miss you.

Kalau bagimu merindukanku adalah hal yang berat, harusnya kau mencoba bagaimana caraku merindukanmu. Kau adalah matahari yang menghangatkan pagiku, dan bulan yang menerangi selama tidur malamku. Tak bosan aku merapalmu dalam doa-doaku, berusaha mengetuk hati Tuhan supaya berbaik hati mengirimkanmu untukku.

Tak perlulah kamu tahu berapa banyak air mata yang membasahi bantal saat khayalku terbawa dalam kenangan tentangmu. Dan, aku pun tak ingin kamu ikut sedih ketika tahu betapa dinginnya hari-hari tanpa senyummu...

Jadi, beri tahu aku, kapan kau akan kembali? Atau, haruskah aku lagi-lagi mengganggu Tuhan supaya Dia mengabulkan permintaanku?

copied from Believe, by Morra Quatro

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Tonight I'm missing mommy so much. Don't you wanna ask how much tears that have dropped through our eyes?

Mom, I know this is really hard. I know you held your tears everytime we talk on the phone. I know you held your tears while we were having a webcam chat. And I know you held your tears when you hugged me tight that day...

We've been through these all. And guess what? We survived. I am okay here, and you can live your life happily as always. For a better future, please just let me go :)

 Remember the first day we met, mom?

3 months, wearing Mas Ancha's clothes, and...

 6 months of me

 My first birthday, my first cake, my first time blowing a birthday candle.

Thank you mommy, for everything you've done for me. I love you, always and forever. They said forever is a long time. I know, I just wanna love you for a long time. I miss you, so much.