December 31st, 2022
Today I went swimming and l thought of you. Are you still swimming these days? I am still wearing the same wetsuit that I used to wear whenever I went swimming with you all those years ago, though I wear a different sport hijab lately.
The water still goes in to my nostrils everytime I try to catch a breath; my habit that made you buying a pair of nose plugs for me. You always told me to catch the breath before the face touch the water, so the water won't be inhaled. But I still do that silly habit until now.
I don't bring a tumbler full of hot tea to swimming pool anymore. I think I am too lazy to do that, or because I just went swimming alone and had no one to share the hot tea anymore.
Today I ate macaroni schotel after swimming, not a bowl of hot and delicious yamie. Are you still eating yamie after swimming?
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January 8th, 2023
These days I have been dreaming about you. Some dreams were good and some were bad. I hugged you tight in those dreams, and those felt so real. Like the last time.
Today I woke up crying real tears. We had a terrible fight (in a dream of course) and I cried so hard. I miss you so much lately. I know this sounds ridiculous but I do really miss you.
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March 9th, 2023
Today I realized I’m not ready to let you go. Maybe one day I will, but certainly not today.
You seem okay without me, and maybe one day I will, too.
I still miss you, you know? How are you lately?
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August 29th, 2023
I’ll just pretend you’d read this, well I hope you do.
You know how people said scents could be related to memories? How when you smell something your brain immediately connects it with something, or someone.
Few days ago I went to a shop and the helper passed by. I smelled your perfume. You know it’s sad because I used to smell it when you were here beside me.
I bet now you smell differently with what I remember. That’s okay because now I’ve changed my perfumes too.
But still, when certain scents passed by, I’d immediately think of you.
Do you still remember how I used to smell like?
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This post will be edited (added) whenever l get some stories to tell you.
